I honestly don't understand why I was brought up in this since I didn't have any privileges for being a girl like you related to but anyways.
Cuzzi, I haven't seen you doing a lot of staff work for any other people than yourself lately, like immediately raging to people who RDM'ed you. I understand that that must've been because you seem to be emotionally unstable like Mahrin said. And the server indeed has had some punches in the face because of the split up.
But you shouldn't get yourself so stressed and mad about that like you do right now. The real and totally opposite side of you has to come back. You're nice and dorky, not angry and rude.
Why not give yourself a break? Get a good hold of yourself again and play sum more Naruto with me :D
And when you are back to your old self again and still feel the passion of being a staff, try it again and make an app again (if necessary).
I still hope that sygc and cat will form a team again someday, though I don't think a lot of other people like to think about that, but well.